The Last Day of Your Life

Dear Reader,

My name is Caleb Duggins, or CalDug which I use as my pen name. I will not go into detail about my background or history in this post as you can find that information in My Introduction section.

So then, let’s start this post with something that goes like this, “If today were the last day of your life, what would you want to do what you are about to do today?” hmm..πŸ€”…silence…..and more silence…..It’s understandable…if today was my last day, the first thing that would happen is…I would panic..😱..and then freak out….and panic some more….and probably just plump my ass on Β a chair and sit in utter silence for a couple of minutes…before reality hits me in the head again and says, “Dude, you’re gonna die today!!!”….You know what’s wrong with this scenario? We don’t get to know when our time is up…There is no deadline in our so-called calendar of life when our sands of time βŒ›οΈ have finished…So we think we have all the time in the world to do the things we want to do before death πŸ’€ calls upon us…but really, going back to my first question, what would be the last thing you do when your time is up?

It’s a simple question, but I find it so difficult to answer. The reason being because there are so many things that I want to do before I exhale my last breath. I want to hold my wifeπŸ‘«, spend time with my children πŸ‘¨β€πŸ‘©β€πŸ‘§β€πŸ‘¦, read that book πŸ“– and watch that movie πŸ“½ which I’ve been putting on hold, visit beautiful and breath taking places 🏞 πŸŒ„ πŸŒ‰ 🏜 πŸ—½, and etc..etc…etc….The list of things to do is just too long..and suddenly I’ve come to an epiphany that my time is limited….and I have been spending time like it was an endless supply…Which leads to my understanding about time and money…I have been chasing money πŸ’° for the majority of my life while as for time⏳, well there was really no need for that..it has always been there for me, or so I thought…it felt like there was an abundance of time because I didn’t have to pay for my time…it was free just like the air that we breathe..Boy, was I so wrong…

There is always a price to be paid..even for freedom itself…I was made to understand that the pursuit of happiness is always connected with the act of making a lot of money πŸ€‘…I thought that money could bring me joy and self fulfillment..but instead it made me 😩..yes that’s right, my life was miserable..i was constantly stressed out…completely drained after coming home from work and never finding the time to do the things I truly enjoy…And this made me very negative at work and at home. I complained a lot about my problems rather than finding solutions…Most of my time was consumed at work and whatever time was left in the day was for resting πŸ›Œ, recharging and spending it with my family…My point is I was spending about 9 to 10 hours at a job which was making me a chunk of money but slowly killing me emotionally and spiritually…I was trading the most valuable asset that I possess for money…and that asset is time…

Therefore, ⏳= πŸ’΅..Time converted into currency becomes money…I was blinded  😡 by this concept for so long that so many years, months, days, hours, minutes, and seconds of my life was spent at a job which never gave me fulfillment..Sure it paid the bills, fed my family, provided a home, a car and other things for entertainment purposes (By the way, I am grateful for all these comforts)…but at the expense of my health and relationships…I hardly exercised due to my busy work schedule…I was frequently getting sick and having to see the doctor often..I didn’t spend enough quality time with my family..working at a job 5 days a week, 8am to 5pm which doesn’t include the long drive to the office which is about 45 minutes (depending on the traffic jam) will take its toll on your body…Our bodies are like a battery…No matter how great you think your willpower is, by the time you reach home, the battery is low and will need to recharge (which comprises of resting and sleeping). So you can bet that my health was slowly deteriorating, and so was my relationship with my family and friends..In fact, I hardly had any time to interact with my friends except for my colleagues at the office (which is mostly based on work)…

I wasn’t in control of my life, rather it was controlling me…making money at a job which gave me a lot of stress, pain, headaches, and taking away half of my time in a day (which amounts to 60 hours in a week!) was not worth the aftermath…I read a quote by Steve Jobs which went something like this: “If today were the last day of your life, what would you want to do what you are about to do today?” Yes, the exact same quote at the beginning of this post..and I came to the realization that I was working for the wrong reasons…Which brings me to another Steve Jobs quote, “The only way to do great work is to love what you do.” I understood then why I never felt fulfilled at my job, why I was wasting so much of my precious time accomplishing the work which never brought me any satisfaction in terms of achievement. I was chasing the money instead of searching for the work which I truly enjoy and love doing. Money came first and then the work…I had disregarded my talents and abilities in exchange for a job that made me miserable. If you read the My Introduction section, you will know that I am now a full time writer and will give everything to achieve success in this field, no matter how bad the setbacks and failures that are bound to hit me…This is the work which I truly love to do and I have neglected it for so long and will not delay a second more..

So, coming back to that question again, if you have not been doing the things that bring out the most joy in your life..if you continue to chase the money rather than focusing on the work you love and are absolutely passionate about..you will look back at your life when you are old, helpless, and lying in bed and thinking if only I had followed my dreams…whatever that was that excited you when you were young…But when that time comes, it will already be too late…and you will be left with an emotion that in my opionion is the most painful feeling you will ever have to go through in life and that is REGRET…Honestly speaking, that is the thing that scares me like hell to have a dream and not try to achieve it…You quit before you even try and succumb to living out someone else’s dream…And I for one certainly don’t want to be that person anymore..Trust me, I’ve been through it…and it’s a miserable way to live…Find the work that you love and are truly passionate about and that gives you self fulfillment, and you will have a life that is meaningful in all aspects of your well being…So, when you are presented with this question again, “If today were the last day of your life, what would you want to do what you are about to do today?”, your answer will be: “The same thing I’ve been doing and I wouldn’t change a single thing because my life is complete”.

And that my friend is the obvious truth.

CalDug

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